Remembering

Yesterday we celebrated Sam's third birthday. It was a fun and action-packed day and we were all exhausted by bedtime. His birthday is always marked by a wide array of emotions for me. The normal, "my baby is getting so big" and "I can't believe how fast he's growing up" stuff along with remembering what a miracle it is that he is so healthy and leading such a "normal" life. And then there's the part where I miss Benjamin and wonder how different things would be if he were still here with us. I know it's okay, and things are the way they are supposed to be and that we will see him again. But I can't help but wonder. And I like to take an opportunity to remember him, honor his short life and look forward to seeing ahim again. So this is my minute. Okay, sorry to get all deep, but sometimes I have to spit out my thoughts and I figure this is a good place to do it. For those who don't know or don't remember, I posted some old pictures of Sam, to show how far he has come.

The dollar bill pictures. The nurses suggested to put him next to the dollar to give perspective on just how small 1 lb 10 oz is. It's hard to believe!

May 29, 2005. The day we said goodbye to Benjamin. This series of pictures are the only ones we have of the boys together and I cherish them. BTW, that's a preemie sized diaper that Sam is wearing, and they were huge on him!